Today was too weird. I finally got to step back and look at things at face value for once. All of those questions about the future are virtually eradicated, and just when I thought that there would be more popping up. I also got to look at my relationships with people. Why won't people stop trying to use me for their own ends? I'm so sick of being a point of reference for everyone. I mean, I'm flattered, but I'm just trying to be me, I suggest everyone else do the same.
It felt weird being a little more girly today. The weather was perfect. It was so amazing. This morning as I got ready for school, all I could think and feel were Paris and SXSW. It's that time of year. It was almost a year ago that I went to both. Since then, they won't escape my thoughts. It was really weird that in keeping with the March-like weather, I wore a vintage French skirt that I bought in the Jewish Quarter of Paris for ten euros at a vintage shop smaller than the size of my room. It was the first time I've ever worn it. Maybe this reinvention is stirring up all of these memories and thoughts and realizations that have been sitting in the back of my mind for the past year. I can't help but be in awe when I look at myself and see the same person I saw a year ago, but the differences are what make me better. The reflection is the same, the taste, the style, the passions are all them same. Yet, somehow they've recombined to make me somehow different. I like this new-ness.
Oh, and it's official. I'm getting the green florally duvet for my future dorm room!
Currently listening:Up Up & Away- Represent!
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