So today was really interesting for many reasons. One, I may have found the replacement for my dream duvet that's delivery was mysteriously cancelled, and I actually may like it better than what I had originally envisioned. Two, I may have found another gift in life- caregiving. Since my dad had knee surgery, I've helped take care of him. So all day today I went running errands with my mom for things that he needs, and then when I got home I got about an hour and a half break before going to babysit for my neighbors grandkids. I felt like such a horrible babysitter, but at the end of the night right before they went to sleep, both of the kids told me individually how great of a mom they think I'm going to make one day. That was a huge shock for someone who has been pretty sure for a while that kids just aren't for her. Maybe i'll rethink that. Today was also one of those lessons in love that I never saw coming. I saw the episode of Scrubs a few days ago where Elliott's marriage is called off because she doesn't think that she loved anyone enough to wipe their eye-goobies, and since then I've been thinking about that in the back of my head. This week has been filled with pushing away those who are way too interested in me, desperately trying not to be ole reliable, thinking about fidelity and secretaries, why touring musicians make the perfect match for me (I don't need a ton of attention, one night of attention can carry me for months, I'm not totally ole reliable, etc.), and if I really would be okay being engaged. Then mix in the whole acting as a caregiver for an adult and two kids. It's weird. Everything about it. But now I know that it wouldn't kill me to have the typical life. I can have real love. I can have real kids. And supposedly, I could be good at it all.

Pictures: Top- Out for the day & bottom: babysitting Currently listening:Saysaysay- Gallerycat