This week has been really weird in such a good way. I've had a lot of support in my upcoming ventures in higher education. When I proposed the idea of me double majoring in policy studies and economics, my favorite teacher was ecstatic at the prospect. Apparently he thinks I'm destined for total domination with this. I checked the AP Exam score requirements for credit at Syracuse and it's looking like i'll be walking into Syracuse with enough credit to be classified as a sophomore. I've also started looking into my possibilities in the creative spectrum, like taking art classes this summer, learning how to screen print, considering minoring in fashion design in college... the possibilities seem endless now that I've realized that maybe the possibility of channeling some of this creative energy into something productive may be benefitial and not distracting like previously thought. How cool would it be to declare myself as independent financially because I made enough money working a regular job and then selling my screen printed shirts and posters? That sounds amazing! Not only could I finally wear clothes that I've made, like I've always dreamed of, but I could have the art filled apartment of my dreams. On that note, my parents actually started looking into real estate in Syracuse. They said they've found some cute fixer-uppers near campus for like $6,000, and that they would consider making the investment because they know how much fun I have doing do it yourself projects and designing. I wouldn't be able to live there for a couple of years, but they could always rent it out, and by the time I'm a senior I could be considered a resident of New York! Just think about it... new drivers license, voting in a not-fully-decided state for the next presidential election, having a place of my own with my art, making my own income. Sounds like the sweet life.
In personal life matters things have been really weird, but in a good way. I think maybe it's because I'm a senior now and we're all about to graduate that people have started saying what they really mean and what we've all been dying to say. Yesterday I found out that this boy I had a HUGE crush on in the 10th grade has had his eye on me for a while now. Then today I found out that this boy I've thought was really cute since I met him in the seventh grade thinks that I'm an amazing girl, and I spent lunch with all of the people I've been meaning to keep in contact with but just haven't. I'm still hoping that there are a few more turn arounds like hopefully the boy everyone thought was "the one" since middle school will tell me something good like he liked me then too, and hopefully "the one" from high school will admit something too before we leave (I mean he always said that he wanted us to go to college together). It's really sad because now that all the pressure's gone I'm finally really enjoying my time around the people I used to be embarassed around. I don't feel subhuman anymore, but now it's just a little too late. If anything high school has taught me two things:
1. There are always going to be those people whom you can count on forever to be your friend.
2. You should never waste your time being scared of what people will think.
Now that I've realized these things, I'm having the time of my life and I wish that I would have realized this a long time ago.
Currently listening:Saco Boys Have No Class- Sparks the Rescue
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