Here's a little tip that I think everyone should know: I have no clue what I really want. I mean look at me. I've spent the past year chasing after the same guys, engaging in the same behavior, and getting the same results which are basically nothing. There are so many oddities in my life. Look how wrapped up I am in the Dallas social scene but so vastly removed from the San Antonio crowd. I have stacks of books about the latest in educational policy, but on my free days I clean and reorganize while watching HGTV, and make jewelry while searching for my latest fashion obsession and throw in the occasional painting or sketching. I have never worn a real jacket except for ski trips on spring break, but I am moving to one of the snowiest cities in America. I am naturally a blonde but I cannot stop switching back and forth between brunette and blonde when I dye my hair. I am terrified of being alone, but I sometimes purposefully isolate myself. I am a great morning person but I can never seem to drag myself out of bed these days. I'm a great student, but I could frankly care less right now. Everything is just a little too polarized right now for me to process. I just don't want to end up being one of those people who just does something because they think it'll end up in security and eventually pseudohappiness in the end.