So whose to blame for who gets burned for holding you?

God this was a rollercoaster weekend. Funeral & Hate & Love.
There's so much I want to tell people, but just can't right now and I feel like I'm going to explode! This is probably the reason people think that I'm too nice. I can't tell people the things they really need to hear in the way they need to hear it. So here it all goes in a mishmash of people and messages: [Stop trying to be my friend, I never wanted to talk to you in the first place. I'm never going to go out with you. You are so transparent, everyone always tells me how jealous you are of me, well you're not going to ever impress me if you keep acting this way, seriously less is more. You are so freaking bi-polar! You say you miss me and then you act like you don't know me when it comes time to hang out. I miss you so badly, but I'm starting to wonder if it's ever going to happen between us, I've stopped thinking about you so frequently and the sentimentality has faded away. I've barely talked to you lately, but I just know when we hang out it's like we're closer than we've ever been, so why do you always act like this? I feel like we should be friends, we're into the same things and we're friends with the same people, so why am I so afraid to talk to you? I really wish you were older so that, when I go out on dates with boys almost as old as you are, it won't feel as awkward for me and so that I won't think of them as unaccomplished next to you, I wish I could grow up to be someone like you professionally when I grow older just with political science. I know we just met, but I think that i could drop every other boy for you, and that's really saying something.] That was almost as good as saying it to their faces...

Anyway. I'm going to try and get back on my feet with this blog. Sometimes life just gets to me and I need to pause. Plus hopefully I'll color my hair and get it cut really soon. So new hair pics and more clothes pics should come soon I hope!

Currently listening:Such Great Heights- The Postal Service